...Meeting her in person for the first time under the current circumstances... Wow..

I had gone to meet her at her school, where my brothers are also schooling (younger), so I had an excuse to be there. I remember walking through the school foyer, mingling with the students, saying hi to a few of them that I knew.. Seeing her was surreal. I almost forgot to breathe.

Then someone pulled me aside to ask about some DVDs my family had purchased... Asking about delivery, other inane stuff.. She seemed to be afraid to approach me. From the corner of my eye, I could see her friends and sister trying to drag her over to where I was.. Trying to get her to come and talk to me... It didn't make my nerves settle down at all... That probably made it all worse.

When I was finally done with the delivery guy, I slowly walked over to where she was, with her two friends, A1 and A2. Her sister, R, had disappeared. As soon as I made my appearance, A1 and A2 suddenly disappeared as well. That made it all even more nerve wracking...

I stood there, staring into her eyes, as she looked this way and that, and made a step forwards. She joined me by my side, as we walked for a few metres, dead silence between us. I remember remarking her friends were acting really weird. She agreed. We walked past the school hall, and towards the football field. Stood there stupidly for a few seconds as I thought of whether or not to walk along the school block adjacent to the field. We turned back, however, when she commented that she didn't fancy getting smacked by a football.

We ambled along, making small talk, walking up afloor to her clasroom.. walking past it... then walking back down again, to the canteen.. Where we had a far-away view of the other students playing football..

I sat down next to her, as she proceeded to go through my mobile phone. I had stuck up a picture of her on my mobilephone wallpaper, and she tried to go through my entire gallery, looking for it. Needless to say, she couldn't find it. ^_^ She spent the next 20 mins running about the school (upstairs anyway), with me in tow, as I vainly tried to get my mobile back.

In the end, I gave up, and just sat in one of the fourth floor classrooms, with a fan on, trying to cool myself down, from all the running. She joined me a few minutes later, apologising softly, for taking away my phone like that, and trying to delete her pictues.. I mumbled it was alright..

Then it got all.. serious... She started asking me about B.. What was the deal with her.. Was she second choice... I could tell by the look in her eyes, that it hurt for her to think she was second choice, behind her best friend.. I know, deep down, that she isn't, wasn't and could never have been second choice. I just wish I knew what words I could have used to tell her otherwise.. It was so heart-wrenching, to see her like that.. And not be able to pull her into a hug, which I really wanted to do, and just whisper into her ears that it would be alright.. That there was only her.

But I couldn't do that. I had no right to. I was not her boyfriend. As much as I wanted to. I said what I could. I told her the truth. That B was in the past. And that we shouldn't let things that happen with other people, affect how we are with each other. She hit me with another question.. 'Have you been totally honest with me?' I answered 'Yeah...', my heart feeling dented because she seemed to doubt my sinceity..

'I had people researching you...' I suddenly remembered that comment at that moment in time... Which she'd made earlier, whilst we were goofing about with erh pictures in my mobile.. And it hurt so bad.. That she was going behind my back, trying to dig up dirt on me, trying to find out my past... When I thought she trusted me enough to just ask me if she wanted to know anything...

Tears seem to well up in my eyes, but I blinked them back, determined not to crumble. Not now. Not when I had been waiting to see her all this while. I sighed loudly.. We were sitting on a table, facing opposite directions, but shoulders leaned against each other.. I laid my head down on her shoulder, feeling weak, not knowing what to say..

The soft warmth of her touch came upon my face.. going under my chin.. She slowly, deliberately, turned to me, pulling my face up to hers, as she softly, tenderly, placed a kiss on my cheek. I was momentarilty stunned.. I had never expected it to come... I mumbled something along the lines of 'I hope no one saw that...'

I pulled myself even closer to her.. Feeling her staying, and not moving away, I leaned once more upon her shoulder, a slow warmth blossoming in my heart. We idily chatted, as her sister suddenly appeared, telling her 'mom will be here early' or something like that... A few minutes later, she said she needed to go downstairs... just in case her mother had come to pick her up early...

'It's time I went downstairs...' She turned her head round to look at me.. As I looked into her eyes..

'Are you in such a rush to go home...?' I drew nearer, as I felt her do the same.. She was so close now..

'Yeah, because...' The sentence never finished coming out. Or I had stopped listening, I don't know. I didn't care. All I could remember was the sweetness of how it felt to have her lips on mine... It was a rush, thoughts cascading through my mind, all being thrust aside by a powerful, indescribable torrent of emotion, all my senses dead to the world. All, except that feeling. In that infinitesmal moment, I felt her. Her passion, her fears, her hopes and dreams.

I remember reaching up, to hold the back of her head in my right hand... Her left hand came to caress my cheek.. It was all so... magical.. Like I had been drowning all this while, without realising it, finally being able to breathe in the sweetness of what life actually meant.. It was all so.. beautiful... so heavenly... I only pray that she felt the same... It seemed to last for so long.. Until we heard her sister screaming.. And then, as though she were a fairy that I had merely dreamt up.. She was gone...

To those who do not understand.. It was only a kiss. Just a kiss.

I have never had a more beautiful, soul-searing experience, in my entire life.